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one thing I know for sure   is that words could never take the place   the place of how I feel   I keep saying I'll never love again   but every time I see you   I see your smile, and feel your warm touch I fall so deep for you   you say you love her and not me   I let you go but you keep coming back   leaving my heart shredded every time you walk away   holding on till the day   when you come back   with the missing pieces of my heart

Has anyone ever thought like this? The way I think when I think about you? I see you so clearly your eyes, your mouth, your nose, everything about you is so clear. I still feel your arm wrapped tight around me. our hands clasped, your thumb rubbing circles on mine. I feel you calloused hands on my back and I hope you feel mine. I want to see you will I ever be able to? Has anyone ever been in such agony over someone? Is this pain even bearable? I hear your voice saying my name and making it sound beautiful. I hear our conversations over and over in my head. Do you hear them to? I want to hear your voice. Will I ever get the chance to?   Has anyone ever felt the way I felt when we first touched? It was ever so brief yet something happened, then you couldn't keep your hands off me. You touch my head, hair waist, arm, and hands. I still feel every one of them and when I remember them I wonder if you remember them to? I want to touch you again will I ever get to?

You were my angel   From heaven you fell right into my heart But now that your gone, I'm lost with out you   Where do I start? My heart has been broken,   My feelings shattered I will never feel the same with any other woman, I'm far from flattered I'm missing you more than ever,   You gave my heart a reason to beat Love is just a friendship on fire,   But we finally lost the heat I'm missing you to this day,   But you probably don't feel the same Now I'm sitting here wondering if you still remember my name

What has happened is never spoken And everything around me has been broken There's no words, just silence. Hate, but no violence Sadness, without tears Humans, without fears. When will the ground break? Where is the open gate? Slowly, the darkness creeps But still, no one weeps. All are withering Hearts are shriveling. This world has grown cold There's no one left to hold. I fear that I too will join them soon Just when the light fades from the moon. My beloved has been turned into a dove And now I know what becomes of this world,   Without his love.

  The night before, I made you mad I wasn't appreciating, the love that I had I came home so drunk, I was really quite late I left you alone, sitting home there to wait I was too self involved, I wasn't using my head Alcohol took over, its hunger I fed I was drinking too often, I thought I was fine Too blinded to realize, the problem was all mine I was never mad at you, I was mad at myself I let life pass me by, seemed it was on the back shelf I blamed all of my problems, on everyone but me Destined for ruins, and alone I would be I made a bad choice, I should have been there with you My greatest mistake, and there was nothing I could do I tried to get sober that night, but made it worse than you know I hated myself, cause I resorted to blow That night I never came home, cause I felt too much shame You'd be able to tell, and there was only me I could blame I text you that night, to say tomorrow I would call The next day with a hangover, I would for-get that all I went ...

  I remember how it used to be when nothing else matter but you and me music, country roads, and future dreams. I miss you, I wish you could see although you are here, I miss you and me. I remember when you said how happy I made you and you really meant it...now, it's just a phrase you say without thinking. I miss those days when you'd call just to say "hi" or "I love you"...the days it was so hard just to say good-bye for a while. I remember how wonderful it felt the first time you held me in your arms-and how after all those years you still made my heart melt. I miss the old you- and the old me The old us that could just sit and talk for hours and never run out of things to say. I remember when time simply stood still- when in each other's arms is the only place we wanted to be...forever. I miss us as I remember how it used to be... when nothing else matter but you and me.